I THINK I’M DYING.

I haven’t felt like myself in almost a year. I think this is what death feels like. I think I’m dying.

I think God is tired of me begging for forgiveness every two days because I’ve done things I know I shouldn’t do. My friend says God can never be tired of me, but I don’t think that’s true in my own case. Does she know the things I’ve done?

Save me.

I think I’m dying.

Someone help please.

I think I want it all to end. I know there’s more to life and I know where my sadness ends is where that of my friends begin if I kill myself, but I’m really tired.

I don’t want to kill myself but I want to stop feeling confused and drained every day I wake up.

I wake up everyday wishing I’ll feel better than yesterday but I guess that’s just delusional of me.

I’ve been stuck in what’s called a valley. I really can’t remember exactly how it started, but right now, I don’t know who I am.

There are nights I lay awake wishing and praying for tears to flow so I can cry out my feelings, maybe that will make me feel something, but no tear comes, so I just lay there feeling nothing but wishing to feel anything.

I think I’m dying.

I’ve tried praying, but I don’t even know what to pray. I think I’ve forgotten how to pray.

The peace and joy that I prayed for constantly for years feels like they’ve been snatched from me and I’m left empty; feeling empty.

I’m dying.

God please don’t let me die.

This is my cry for help.

“The Lord is close to the brokenhearted; he rescues those whose spirits are crushed.”

‭‭Psalms‬ ‭34‬:‭18‬ ‭NLT‬‬

P.S: See this as an exaggerated work of fiction.

Finished Writing: 25th December, 2025 22:55.

Edited: 26th December, 2025 13:25.

Posted: 26th December, 2025 13:26.